irony

i just realise my blog title is "a place you can be mellow"

but then i read my blog,there's nothin bout it that's mellow...

its all whining n complaints n i hate this,i hate that..im upset bout this,she making me feel this..
i feel inadequate...bla bla bla bla

im sick of this shiiittt....harris,JD,jackal...i need u guys man

oh n im sorry if i ever WA HAI SEI/SENG..didnt mean it

question?

how do u possibly go from one state of mind to another in just hours?

i was fine dis morning..average day,average life..den after dinner it change..
i had that feeling again..of loneliness

n the mature state of mind i had before suddenly fell to pieces..
i read one of my post not too long ago,i sound so matured.like i've gotten rid of this prob,like i can dodge it anytime it comes..

but the state i am now,looks like i was wrong..as much as i want to,i cant seem to go back to that state..n that annoys me...why cant i just grow up,im fucking 18 with a vague vision in life...

i always let these little things get in my way,disturb my focus..WHY THE FUCK???!!!

see what i tell u,if i write my blog all i do is complain..i guess that's the common ground or medium,one of the reasons people write blogs,to vent out their dissappointments,anger,n upsets...

ok this is getting too long,simply put..u caused it..when u called i realise that i had nothing to talk to u,n it upsets me cuz im trying to make things work again..for the 3 or 4th time..

its not working clearly,ur not interested to talk to me at all..u rarely think bout me,heck i dont think u'd even wonder how im feeling rite now eventho i just text u just now...ur busy online but u cant even reply my msg...

everytime i get a msg from u,my heart skips a beat..how i wish u felt the same..

why cant u just take the exit out of my life..

morning sorrows

oh boy,here it comes again..

i cant help myself..
i cant stop looking at u
cant stop thinking of u

STOP!!!.. its harder than u think,everytime i push u away u just keep coming back.

i wish i never met u,so that i wouldn't be hurting everytime i think of u..
n what we could've been.

yes i miss u..

ur eyes..ur laugh..ur voice is enough to make me smile

ur smile..captivating
ur touch..sensuating
ur presence..exhilarating

yes u've change both emotionally and physically since we met,but i still feel the same butterflies in my stomach..
for all i know it could've gotten worse.

life is cruel,us not being together..for if u were my queen i'd make sure everyday is in honor of u..
oh yes,life is cruel..

is there another chance for me,everytime i see a glance of hope,i dont know what to do..
grab it n i'll fall again..
ignore it n i'll lose out.

oh yes,i miss u baby :(

im back :)

well wat can i say,i feel like blogging again

currently im having intersession at my uni,feels great..

except i still haven't started studying..fuck!

had a blast during d one week hols,have to say the best time was when i went up to genting
fucking awesome ya'll..i owe it to my bro's-harris,JD n Jackal..

these never stop believing in me,even after all those k.o shots..hahahahahaha
good times :)

life's great so far,just that a guy is missing the one ultimate excitement in his life,ya'll know what that is..but hey im in no rush to get one,im pretty fine with what i got now,but i gotta admit,could be better definitely..

wtv la..make the best of what u have is what they always say..besides i gotta do like those other guys do,focus on more important things in life,like education,frens(real frens)..then everything will fall into place,well not everything la..

things are finally looking up,im getting the freedom i always wanted,my parents arent gonna be home for a long time,my sis n bro dont seem to mind my use or misuse of freedom,i guess they agree with me too that i need it..

but money is a REAL bitch to this freedom,its flowing out like water man..FUCK!
comes in like dust,flows out like water..hahaha my analogies are ridicule..

i guess u can say im starting to grow up,learning that i gotta step up. be that man/boy that can carry himself,with confidence n a perseverance that is even more tougher than a concrete+steel aloi..wtv that is...

ooh i play rugby better now,its true,practise does make perfect..
but alotta practise apparently..HAHAHA

gtg,eyelids are closing,commencing shut down
damn i sound like a computer program..maybe i should try this

till later,chiowz(haven't used that one since high school)

here's why

here's why i dont blog no more(well not lately)..

1. lazy

2. nobody reads it anyway

3. i dont feel like telling people what happens everyday in my life

4. those that need to know also end up being told anyway

5. i realise with a blog i whine alot..too much - so thats gone

-the end-

yummmy

this is what i am   ..

cool huh :)

this is for you bro :)

yeah so basically thanks to Harris, you all can just go along n call me..

"DANNY DA BITCH"

:)

yeah dats for you bro.

enjoy it while it lasts.

ahahahahahahaha

:D

in the moment

i was on the phone with my gurl-fren n we had this convo that just cheered me up instantaneuosly..
i just love it when she does this..

me : wei,i need to study la..but aku xde mood doh
tress : jgn mcm2 dai..get it x?
me : wats dai?
tress : u said xde mood nak study doh..so that's short for 'bodoh' rite..so i said dai,short for 'pandai'
me : hahahahahaha..*LMAO*
tress : yey u get it..haha

damn it ur priceless..haha

im only doing this cuz Fats tagged me :D

Here ya go,100 truths..is it really 100??

Last beverage 
→ coke. diet.

Last phone call 
→ sheyra

Last instant message 
→ wanna go to melakau man? :D

Last song you listened to 
→ shaggy..cant remember the title tho :(

Last time you cried 
→ looooooooooooooooooong time ago..


HAVE YOU EVER:

Dated someone twice 
→ yes

Been cheated on 
→ no..they just love me too much :p

Kissed someone & regretted it 
→ ahuh :o

Lost someone special
→ yeah :(


IN THE PAST MONTH HAVE YOU:

Fallen out of love 
→ heh?

Laughed until you cried 
→ no..

Met someone who changed your life 
→ idk

Have you kissed anyone on your top friends? 
→ do i look like i have one? 0_o

How many ppl on your top friends do you know in real life? 
→ refer above..

How many kids do you want to have 
→ 2..one boy one girl

Do you have any pets 
→ fuck u FATS..haha 

Do you want to change your name 
→ why?

What time did you wake up today 
→ 8....AM...OMG!!

What were you doing at midnight last night 
→ goin crazy..haha

Name something you CANNOT wait for 
→ to go back n study herbology wit FATS :D

Last time you saw your father
→ few weeks back..

What's one thing you wish you could change 
→ this question -_-'

Have you ever talked to a person named Tom 
→ no..

What's getting on your nerves right now 
→ f-ing sleepy..

What's your real name 
→ Hazman Dani..nuff said

Zodiac Sign
→ leo *rawwwrrr*

High School
→ SMK Seaport/Sri Permata

Hair color 
→ black

Long or short 
→ short 

Are you a health freak 
→ nope

Righty or lefty 
→ i write wit my right n kick wit my left..coolio :)


FIRSTS:

First surgery 
→ 14..i had sinus

First piercing 
→ never ever..ugly bodoh

First best friend(s) 
→ Norazim Yadiyy..he was my neighbour

First sport you joined 
→ sleeping :P

First pet 
→ Harris a.k.a Fats,Fatty, etc.

First vacation 
→ can't remember

First crush 
→ very early,in kindergarden..i was 6 i think


CURRENTLY :

Eating 
→ nothin

Drinking 
→ nothin

Waiting 
→ for time to stop/freeze


YOUR FUTURE :

Want kids? 
→ refer above :D

Want to get married?
→ duhh..

Careers in mind? 
→ the one where u sit around n do nothin n stil get $10000 everyday..yup that one :D


HAVE YOU EVER:

Kissed a stranger 
→ yeah :D

Lost glasses/contacts 
→ nope

Ran away from home 
→ no..

Broken someone's heart 
→ yes..terribly sorry bout that :(

Been arrested 
→ nope

Turned someone down 
→ haha yeah but mostly i dont even realise when i do it

Cried when someone died 
→ no..i have a stone heart..


DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

Yourself 
→ sometimes

Miracles 
→ it can happen

Love at first sight 
→ cock n bulls

Heaven 
→ yeah

Santa Claus 
→ do i look 7 yrs old to u???

Kiss on the first date 
→ eyah..

Angels 
→ yea


ANSWER TRUTHFULLY :

Is there one person you want to be with right now? 
→ idk

Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time 
→ yeah..

Do you believe in God? 
→ yess

i lazy wanna tag people can not?

ok ok la i tag azrina,tressa,n whoever who reads this shit..

adios amigos :)

damn tagged again..

Once you've been tagged, you have to write a post with sixteen random thing, habits or goals that you have. At the end, choose at least six people to tag, listing their names and why you chose them. Don’t forget to leave a comment telling them about the tag. You can’t tag the person who tagged you.

1.i started saying the word 'douche' first then HARRIS started copying me..douche!

2.im only creative during certain times,its like it comes when it has too..

3.due to contrary belief, i am NOT HARRIS's bitch..it lets him sleep thinking so.

4.honestly,i dont think bout usefull stuff anymore,i just stare into blank space..hmmm

5.i use to love looking at the stars and think..bout stuff

6.at one point in my life,i actually wanted to be a police..dayyum

7.i once used to b a real nerd & geek..straight A's student..wat happen now la..haha

8.used to have no problem with frens,but now the real ones are surfacing n i know who i should actually bother about

9.i just recently turned down an oppurtunity to ask a chick for her no cuz i chickened out

10.damn why did i do that,should've just done it..

11.i seem to have a way with words that i don't even realize..confessions of from other people not mine

12.i need to lose weight n start working out,cuz rite now this body is just not working

13.im a very shy person..

14.but however if motivated i can come up with things even a natural cant do..HAHA

15.i love it when a girl kisses me spontaneously,anywhere anytime,just one smooch is enough to make me feel.........u know what i mean :)

16.i cherish my frens n trust easily,so don't misuse it. 

17. im adding another one,woohoo..i like to eat bread tosted with garlic n then spread with kaya jem..delich,serious..

so now im gonna tag =D

NO ONE.... (-_-)

How to date a Sober :p

im doing this just to respond to Mr. H post on "How to date a stoner"

im not encouraging this too,just wanted to see how people would react

haha :p

STEPS TO BE FOLLOWED :)

1. sobers are never only in their own world,their into everybody's..so never assume that he might ave missed that harsh remark u made bout his best fren

2. if u want him to be permanent,better make him like ur frens,cause if he doesn't ur stuck with a dillema..cause a sober WILL make u choose, bro's or ho's??

3. a sober will choose YOU over alcohol,drugs n guys in a heartbeat..so do appreciate :)

4. sober's are a bore,tensed and very anxious people to be around with..beware!

5. contrary to popular belief, not all sober's are succesfull,organised and has a bright future..he can just be more fucked up then a stoner or drinker

6. sober's are almost always pissed off at something. its because their not taking time to enjoy life and just ride the ride x)

7. if a sober picks up weed after meeting u, he/she MAY NEVER WANT TO SPEND HIS/HER LIFE WITH YOU EVER..(seriously)

8. lastly, never research bout sober's cause its just impossible..their very unpredictable,u never know when their gonna dump u for mary.j or liquor..hahaha

i did this yeah cause obviously i had nothing to do and i just wanted to annoy my good fren Mr. H..

haha damn i have no life..

ouch..haha

i sprained my knee during rugby practise yesterday..

was my own doing,i was running towards an opponent(who was my fren since it was training anyway) n i sorta step on my knee to hard making it go inwards..yeah i heard a cracking sound,the first 10 minutes it hurt like hell n my knee was shaking..

but after awhile it subsided,but after that i couldn't walk straight..

being the guy i couldn't "manja" kan the pain so much,at least i can still walk..

but i did go to the clinic today to get MC..ahaha can skip class..it hurts la but its not that bad,i can just withstand it but i'd rather just rest..

why???? cuz now its swollen,n i cant actually bend it or making it straight..feels numb sometimes

anyway enough bout my knee,tmr i need to go see 2 lecturers to present my MC slip,n apologize for skipping so many classes(haiz another bad habit)..

oh n to tressa n sheyra,im sorry i didnt go for the AGM tonite,again my knee,doc said don't exert..sorry aite??

im suppose to train my juniors for their upcoming debate competetion but i don't know a thing bout training them,i could use some training myself..cuz i SUCK..bigtime!!

peace :)

get stupid

have you all watched 'Get Smart'...

well if u havent u should,u don't know what ur missing..

i just love this line from the movie

max : chief,are u thinking what im thinking?

chief : i don't know..where u thinking holy shit holy shit holy shit a swordfish just almost went through my head..if so then yes

LMAO..seriously hilarious

grumble..part 2

im having that feeling again..

i hate this feeling,its like shit..

imagine your the titanic n your sinking down the ocean with nothing you can do to save yourself..

just sinking.....and sinking....still sinking.....

it seems endless,i hate feeling like this,n i cant talk to anyone bout it,done that to many times.

doesn't really solve anything,supposedly to look into my soul and look for answers but come on

who really believes in that Buddha philosophy crap.

what i gotta to not feel this way,what i gotta do to make u go away..

perhaps i need my to hang with my bro's - Mr.Green & Mr.H

guys i'll be back..ahahahaha

cold =0

its 3.15 am..

am freaking cold..

its like genting up in here..

the fan is like blasting at no. 5

i wish i had u my body warmer/cuddle buddy/sweater..

i wish i had u baby..

miss u :(

grumble...

i have a problem..

its called writers block..well not exactly,thing is im extremely lazy to go online n write..

it takes alotta effort u know(keep in mind that im a VERY lazy person)..i mean u gotta go on9,log in,think what your gonna write,stuff like that..

i mean it doesn't just come naturally for me,like other people..i get a little envyious(ok i dunno how to spell that so im just gonna pretend that its the right spelling) sometimes with other people's blog,its soooooo updated..

my lagging updates have caused my blog to lose its fan database,n now im starting to sound like a computer nerd..haha

people say write about your day la,what u did etc..but honestly isn't that for like diary kinda shiit..never had a diary so i wouldn't really know..

now i think there only a few people who read my blog n i can count them with one hand,not that it really matters that much but then again,kinda stings u in a way..

i got tagged recently in one of my frens blog,will post that up soon enough la,cant do it rite now cause its 3am n i have class at 8am later,need to get that sleep otherwise i'll miss it n get barred..running outta excuses to tell my lecturer as nice as he may seem(yes its a HE)..

tomorow night la i promise i'll update peeps..im just smoking up the remains of my last marlboro cigarette right now before i go to sleep,at the same time im thinking isn't it bad to smoke before u go to sleep??

aaah wat the hell,might as well goo the whole nine yards rite..

peace :)

p/s:the smiley at the end doesn't really expresses my current mood right now,feeling actually the opposite of that..long story,haih another post...man this blogging thing is getting on my nerve..

funny..

i just got up..suddenly i had the urge to go online..

so i checked out a couple of my frens blogs..found one post dat really cracked me up

the guy was referring to a convo he had wit some gurl..went like this

girl: u know i dont know why guys like to spend their time n money on gadets like ps3,xbox..
its a waste..
guy: my dear ****,u wanna know why us guys enjoys those items,its because they have
something girls dont.
girl: oh yeah!! wats dat?
guy: (here comes the punchline)...an OFF button ;D

hahahahahahahahaahahahaha..i laughed my ass off when i read this..

anyway dats all actuallly,..just felt like telling ppl bout it..

hee :D

what happen?

when did the feeling started to change..

i don't like coming home now,feels more of a burden rather then taking a rest..

i don't like coming home now,feels like a slave rather then a guest..

sometimes i wish i was just born as blessed, 'as blessed as those other people who don't have to go through this mess..

why oh why did the feeling start to change.

bliss

this is HER :)

there's been questions on who this is..lets just say she's someone special la..nothing serious yet,but who knows..anyway she makes me laugh,so lets just see where this adventure goes :)

haha dingbat :)

oh now only u wanna say who is he to comment on us...before this u say look on the positive side or take it positive..

now look who's the one complaining...haha 

y so sad?

ok i usually dont give the right titles for my post,but dats besides the point.

im not gonna talk bout that,i've read my blog lately,full of sad n' depreesing shit..so im gonna change that..

a fren of mine-yasmin- said the other day, "in segamat,everyday im bored n free"..lmao,i gotta agree with her..

this weekend has been by far the most boring n' least productive weekend..i stayed back in hopes of getting some work done,u know get the wheel rolling..all it did was freeze,didnt do anything but sleep,movie.games,n yeah of course - smoking..damn it

met up wit sheyra last friday,god i miss hanging out wit her,talked bout alot,could've talked more but UiTM has a curfew -11pm..wtf?! are we like schol kids or something,chillex la..haha

which reminds me,u all know what chillex means? 'chill & relax' rite? hence chillex..
wat bout 'kopi & teh'? haha koteh(dats malay for penis you dingbat)..haha my frens mom came up with that one when i was over at his house..

well thats it for the weekend la,such a bore rite..i just had lunch with tressa just now,yet again i made her 'geram' up to the point where she wants to pinch n shoot me in the face..had fun la,making fun of each other..stuffed pig :p LOL..no no ROFL..haha

well thats it for now,i gotta go sleep..well im lying..i got class la..i wanna be a good student,like thats gonna happen..haha

p/s : someone said i had a cute butt :)..woot..nothing big la,i get that all the time..haha

peace :)

wow

ok..its serious,i need help..but who? at what cost..how? seriously god,help me..give me guidance

4 in the morning

its 4am..still cant sleep,god knows why..the boys in my room are having some pillow talk amongst them,kinda gay-ish..lol

wanted to write something but then it shoudnt go in public..just kena tegur by "bamboo" about the above..haha marah dia..bodo

first time aku tulis blog aku dalam bahasa melayu..kelakar dowh.sekarang "laici" n "padokski" tgh menyibuk..aku bosan,esok klas pukul 8am,x tido lagi..adoi..

ok enough with the BM..lets get back to mainstream,so...i cant sleep..WTF!!

used my planner for d 1st time today,felt kinda good..now the hard part is keeping up with it..will be getting my "salary" tomorow,awesome..can buy some stuff,settle my debts..

i remembered once my fren told me that the day after SPM she didnt go out party like the rest of the world but instead she stayed home on her bed,hugged her pillow n started crying..i asked why? she said she got scarred,just thinking bout the world ahead n the challenges she needs to face,be it socially,financially,emotionally n all the other 'lly (haha)..

its safe to say i finally now understand it,well at least part of it..i was just thinking bout my life just now n wat so much i need to do to make it a nice life to live in..im not sayin it aint good enough already,but it really needs some improvement..seriously! compared to the other people i've met,their lives are much more fun than me..

yeah i know,i shoudn't compare with other people,i shoudn't look up to people just like that,but its like an automatic trigger,like how when u pull the trigger of an M16 carbine assault rifle..it just never stops firing..god i dont even know wat to do..or wat to think..n apparently writing bout this aint really helping at all..so im gonna stop here..

peace.