not again..*part 1

its dat time again..registration *pump pump pump*

to be honest,im not keen at all. i hate this gut-feeling i have in my stomach that makes me feel like puking just by the thought of it..

i haven't settle my ptptn stuff-meaning that i've not readied the doc's, i have a problem with registration which of course requires me to see my course coordinator again..im sure she's had enough of me i bet. abit worried though, haven't registeres my classes, hopefully i'll get to enter a class for each subject..how am i suppose to kick start the sem with the rite attitude with this many problems..

really brings your momentum n' morale down.. . . . . damn

i've been realising alotta of things late, especially this past week. now my biggest fear is losing sight of that realisation..funny huh :)

ok woah suddenly im sleepy...gtg

i promise this will continue......

peace :)

style..a perspective or a trend?

i just realise..yeah im not much of a stylo guy.

my style of clothing is basically jeans n round-neck t-shirts with funky captions..

dats bout it. no vest,or smart looking shirts. no sweaters. designer jeans.

all i have are old polo shirts passed down from my bro's (same goes for my jeans,which i only have 2 pairs)

n a brown short sleeve shirt n black long sleeve which are both outdated n unfittable..

my shoes are typical low tops..all koyak d..

GOD wat is wrong,gotta get some new clothes..but i need a fashion kinda person?

anyone out there????

cough*cough

this cough is getting the better of me

yet i still cant give up the addiction

so wat do i do? just ride it out i guess..

-peace-

Hazman™

long awaited

i've hit rock bottom.results r out,its bad but im pissed bout one particular one,gonne ask to re-check..stupid lecturer.i scratch ur car den u know..

its hard having alotta frens(or at least i think i do),i realise dat when u start meeting new frens or hang out wit a certain group,you lose contact with certain others..and frens come and go like water..the hard part is keeping in touch with them..dammit!!
i just realise i got some pretty good frens which im no longer close with cause i've been so obsessed searching for new ones..FCuk

everyday is a new discovery,i should be on discovery channel. lol. im getting tired,everyday i find something new,be it good or bad..tiring la wei. plus i realise in this world,im not alone..(DUH!!). i mean as a hopeless romantic. ok maybe just hopeless la. shessh whats with all the negativity in me. i just read some blog,pretty funny. he/she should be a comedian writer if such thing exist.

plus i've been reading my old post,my writting style is boring,need to improvise. creativity switch is now ON.

for the past 2 weeks i've been in kedah,working surprisingly. some event called Gempak Desa Astro. get this my job-artist bodyguard. easiest rm80 i've ever made. of course that all went down the drain when i went to penang..twice. but was fun la,got to hang with some artist,stay at nice hotels for FREE.

did some crazy stuff with my cousing n her frens in penang,of course la got pics..wat la all of you. but its still in the guys camera,which is so-awesomely-COOL..i learned to take photo's-professionally..HAHAHAHAHa.

ok..im done. creativity is sleepy. plus im coughin like mad n still puffing ciggies. nice huh.
gotta settle this ptptn loan shit before i go back this weekend. looks like new year is from segamat this time.

bye ppl.

Hazman™

lazyness

i feel lazy to post now,just had a very filled weekend..

i'll write bout it tmr i guess...

going for a game called snooker now...c ya :)

wow...

i currently have a new direction in my life..a new oppurtunity just rose,but as usual there are challenges..but im at a blank..

theres a break for me,im finally gettin to change my life,i mean financially,socially..new opp's are arising,but there are prices such as friendship,parental love and advise..

its like if i wanna achieve that goal,im gonna have to go thru these road blocks....inevitably..and to perservere these blocks,im having doubts..whether i'll withstand it or not,whether it'll work out or not. im scared of the end result being bad that im scared to even make my 1st move..basically im not sure whether i'll brake down or not..like they say-can u withstand ppl saying NO!..

im getting excited thinking bout it,i mean c'mon,its life changin..im willing to put in effort..but the fear of something stopping me and actually giving up-that feeling is really clouding my judgment,for the 1st time im so scared to even try..im excited bout it,to try it..but i gotta tell myself constantly to not put hopes on it bcuz i feel that it wont work out bcuz of 101 reasons..and having to do that really sucks and breaks your momentum..

im not really a holy person,so i dont know who to turn to n ask for guidance,ask for hope..i just dont know...could this b a calling from above..i dont know..im never been so unsure..GOD HELP ME..i dont even know why im blabbing this shit out on my blog..