story of roses..

ROSES...their a unique flower,can convey meaningful messages but yet their a thorny flower,able to hurt as well as cure...able to wound as well as heal..fucking roses...i fucking hate them...people say their a great gift but i think its just fucked up my life...

FUCKING ROSES..
i fucking hate it when things like this happen...why cant i just have a happy ending like everyone else...i always have to let go the thing that i treasure the most...is there never a break for me,can i never let my guard down....god fucking dammit...ARGGHHHHHHH!!!!

update...

haha gotcha,not really an update..more like an attempt to amuse...

its 3.20 am,im online with no one online with me..y is everybody sleeping early tonight? hmmm...just got back from mamak-ing wit my bro,found out that cheese naan goes well with mayonaise..Mmmmmm..

got nothin to really talk or express about,well got la but lets save it for another time shall we,im feeling creative tonight..anyway im going through my events of the day,pretty boring day actually..the only highlight was i went buka puasa wit some frens,if you call that a highlight la..

i went for tarawih,dats a hell of a highlight..HAHA oh yeah i just discovered that one of my idiot frens blocked his blogpage from the public and did not include my google account as one of those allowed to view it...dude wats up? i thought we were tight..

well i guess dats it for now,gonna watch american gangster for the 3rd time,hell of a great movie...esp in dvd...not pirated but DvD 9..chiowzz n a goodnite

god save me..

im bored..out of my skull..im writing this from a cybercafe at 3.30 am,so you can imagine how stunted my brain is..i feel like expressing but however i just dont feel it that much here..i guess its the aura of the place..or maybe just cuz i have no ideas..am i running out of imagination and creativity?? GOD really save me :(

things in my life havent been really smooth,alotta shit in my life has been going on,which i just dont wanna really think about cuz then it'll just flood my head with worries..mainly its the problem leading to a well known teenage fact..my dad names it INSECURITY COMPLEX..fucking complex i tell you..even i cant figure it out..and it comes with its best friend-PEER PRESSURE..great combo huh

and to think im grown out of this..seriously i got no one to turn to and help me out with this,and it sucks..gotta figure this out on my own..you know i cant even believe im blabbing this out on my blog where ppl can read it..ahhh then again who reads my blog :p

anyway thats it for now..i dont wanna think to much la,plus im sleepy..

Hazman ™

a rainbow is a colourful frown..

i cant sleep..god knows why

help me sleep,gimme some pills or something,i need sleep..

oh ya btw sorry for not updating,been a little busy (plus kinda lazy to type)..

it always comes at the wrong time,most things in life..doesnt it?

ok goodnite..bye

need sleep...

i act have somethin to write,somethin's on my mind...but im too sleepy..

my head is pulsating already..i'll write it later when i get up..if i still remember..LOL

"i swear your a great guy to talk to"..

isn't it nice to hear someone say dat to you? ..well yeah its okay la,like any other compliment it deserves a well meant "thank you".. so i went out wit a friend yesterday,met her at bali(dats taylors pj for those who don't know) and walked all the way to pyramid from there..

WALAAOO!!! damn far wei,n she says she's use to walking there,i told her isn't that far and she said no..i couldn't just let her walk all by herself,so i offered to accompany her...but it just had to be a day of hot sun after a heavy rain..rite when the air is filled with humidity and no capacity to absorb moisture...sheesh,it was hot...

by the time we got there both of us were sweating,not good..LOL. the journey there's was filled with potholes,puddles of dirty water,sand everywhere and being the "smart" kid i am,i didnt fold my pants..oh boy was there a surprise for me when i got home to change..LOL my plans today was just to sit down at starbucks,have a drink and catch up on old times,but she quickly beet me to it.."i gotta be home by 7pm,lets watch a movie"..i replied "you read my mind...wat movie?"

we then decided to watch GET SMART :)..awesome movie,funny to the bone..was laughing all thru out the movie..n good thing is it wasn't one of those typical rookie agent spy movies where he doesn't do anything rite,the hero actually had some skills of his own which kinda impressed me in a way..there's one particular line i enjoyed laughing to the most :-

(elevator to secret villain lair comes down,door whooshes open)

bad guy: who are you?

good guy: i am nikolai shikepel..i was told to come here if i am looking for things with a nuclear nature

bad guy : how do i know ur not CONTROL? (control is the spy agency)

good guy : if i were CONTROL u'd already be dead..

bad guy : if u were CONTROL u'd be dead..

good guy : neither of us is dead so therefore i am certainly not CONTROL..

*pause*both of them stares at each other,blankly as if somethin stupid actually just made sense

2nd bad guy : *pause* that actually makes sense..

HAHA..there's alot more where that came from,go watch it today..i give it a 10/10..

after a gut-twisting movie,we were hungry..wellll okla it was hust me..i just had to sink my teeth into mcd's grilled chicken foldover,all she had was nuggets.. wat is it with girls seriously,they love buying those nuggets,eventho the price is not worth it..and they actually agree wit that fact..
we had a long talk bout ourselves,our relationship hickups,life problems..did some flashbacks which simply tickled my funny bones..urgh am i ever gonna stop laughin today..

one thing i noticed bout this gurl,she likes pouting..she can be angry one moment n the next she'll start doing that face..n followed by dat 'manja' squel..its actually REALLY cute,but i didnt tell her that,dont want sending wrong signals(if u know wat i mean :P)..but its js adorable la ;)..i noticed under dat loud,lively n vibrant outer shell of hers-there's actually a 'manja' little gurl who just wants to be loved..good luck wit mr brunei..haha :D

after i sent her home(which was just to asia jaya),i went home,showered n slept the nite off..man was i tired..all that walking..bad idea..or maybe im just outta shape :p..

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