4 in the morning

its 4am..still cant sleep,god knows why..the boys in my room are having some pillow talk amongst them,kinda gay-ish..lol

wanted to write something but then it shoudnt go in public..just kena tegur by "bamboo" about the above..haha marah dia..bodo

first time aku tulis blog aku dalam bahasa melayu..kelakar dowh.sekarang "laici" n "padokski" tgh menyibuk..aku bosan,esok klas pukul 8am,x tido lagi..adoi..

ok enough with the BM..lets get back to mainstream,so...i cant sleep..WTF!!

used my planner for d 1st time today,felt kinda good..now the hard part is keeping up with it..will be getting my "salary" tomorow,awesome..can buy some stuff,settle my debts..

i remembered once my fren told me that the day after SPM she didnt go out party like the rest of the world but instead she stayed home on her bed,hugged her pillow n started crying..i asked why? she said she got scarred,just thinking bout the world ahead n the challenges she needs to face,be it socially,financially,emotionally n all the other 'lly (haha)..

its safe to say i finally now understand it,well at least part of it..i was just thinking bout my life just now n wat so much i need to do to make it a nice life to live in..im not sayin it aint good enough already,but it really needs some improvement..seriously! compared to the other people i've met,their lives are much more fun than me..

yeah i know,i shoudn't compare with other people,i shoudn't look up to people just like that,but its like an automatic trigger,like how when u pull the trigger of an M16 carbine assault rifle..it just never stops firing..god i dont even know wat to do..or wat to think..n apparently writing bout this aint really helping at all..so im gonna stop here..

peace.